Thursday, March 20, 2014

Emotional Cutting... Lock up all of your CDs, laptops, iPads, phones!!!


Okay, what girl hasn’t put together a sad breakup song playlist and listened to it while sitting on the kitchen floor, with a bottle of wine in tow… (skipping the glass altogether)?  Hey, I’ll be the first to admit that nothing makes me feel lower than subjecting myself to hours of Jar of Hearts on repeat on a lonely Friday night as I stain my lips purple w/ red wine.  Jar of Hearts will eventually turn to cyber stalking.. WHY?!  Because nothing breaks your heart over and over like subjecting yourself to pictures of your ex, your past life, his new girl, maybe even the dreaded Wedding Website… even going through the registry to see if you can at least find something wrong about this girl, like... “Really?  She picked out that plate pattern?!  UGH.” Come on, at that weak moment, I’d take anything to distract me from reading “how they met” or “their proposal story” over and over… Of course with Jar of Hearts playing in the background. 

Why in the world do we do this to ourselves?  Why do we feel it’s necessary to bawl for hours, leading to pathetic texting, awful drunk dials, more texting to apologize for the first 10 texts that most likely went from missing them to accusing them of being selfish dirt-bag pricks.  I guess the one good thing about texting is that at least there’s a record of what was said on our end and what wasn’t said on theirs, which quickly turns into a bad thing hours later or the next day when you realize just how pathetic it seems. 

I try to make sense of my emotional cutting behavior by saying that I just need to get it out of my system and would like to believe that if there is an allotted amount of time spent mourning or tears we should cry after a heartbreak, getting them out in one long marathon will help the healing, right?!  Even though I don’t think this is what a trained professional would advise one to do, as an untrained professional and one who experiences things first hand vs. via a text book, I do think it’s better to acknowledge heartbreak and your feelings and not sweep them under the kitchen rug and expect them to simply go away with time. So, the moral of this topic is, go ahead - get your playlist together and sit on that kitchen floor, but once you pull yourself up, right before you sit yourself in front of your computer, JUST GO TO BED.  You’ll feel much better about things in the morning for not selling yourself short w/ texts, calls and facebook stalking. 
 
Every “Kitchen Floor Drinking" playlist should include:  

-       JAR OF HEARTS (for guaranteed crying)
-       Come Over -- Kenny Chesney
-       Goodbye in Her Eyes -- Zac Brown
-       The Last Song I’ll Write for You -- David Cook
-       Tomorrow -- Chris Young
-       Over When It’s Over – Eric Church
-       Wrecking Ball -- Miley Cyrus
-       ** Say Something – A Great Big World (my new favorite song to put on repeat and sing through my tears )
-       Glitter in the Air – Pink
-       A Little Bit Stronger - Sarah Evans

Feel free to suggest a few of your faves!!  I’m always interested in revamping my list. 

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